Suicide

How does it feel like to be cut into a million pieces with more than 100 wheels running over you? How does it feel like when the rope tightens around your neck? How does it feel lie when you gulp one mouthful of poison (I don't know the exact amount, and I will never try, ever)? Ending up life in just a minute, how does it feel?

I have taken a very negative topic to discuss about today, for simple reasons. I had gone to Eranakulam yesterday, and I took the train for the purpose. At Chalakudy I heard that someone jumped in front of the train, and was taken away in plastic bags. To realize that some one actually jumped under the train I was travelling was not good news to hear.

But think about the other side. Why did he kill himself? I tried a small analysis, and got across some answers. One is that he must have got bored of life. Well then, he has done the best thing, because this world is not for lazybones like him or any others.

The other reason must be that he must have lost all options in life? But seriously, does options ever end in life? People thought my options were dead, but look at me now, I am doing really fine? On the comparison basis I may not be compared to any of my school or college mates, but I can assure you that am far more happier than anyone else, all because I chose something for myself, and it was my decision and I decided to FIGHT for it. So....I can clearly say that if it was for this lame reason, he didn't try enough.

One other reason may be that the society may have ill treated him. Now this was something I had gone trough until I learned to stand up. And it is the same for every individual in life. Ill treatment never means physical or sexual torture, for it is mostly the mental torture that is painful. The society is to be blamed in our country for such actions of an individual, but seriously the man could have stood up for himself.

A better liable reason that I thought of was that, if the man is an aged man, he must have been a burden to his children one way or the other, so decided to end up his life to let them live happily, or to not see himself being thrown away by his son, or maybe he has been thrown away.....what the??? This kind of shit happens only in movies and if this had happened in real life, then he is the worst man I ever saw.

Other reasons include teenage misjudgments, love failures, family disputes, failure in some activities and so on. Statistically speaking, India is the country with most number of suicides, and frankly, three can be termed guilty in the process. One happens to be the society, who are very much orthodox and expect others to move as how they want, but won't do it for themselves. Second will be family, and I can say that not all families have a good thought for each other among themselves (most because that is the message they get through television after 7 every night). And thirdly, the individual, who can not face the reality, and can not live his dream and thus gets fed up of his life. But to be frank, the ultimate blame is for the doer than the provokers in this case.

There are some cases when girls have no choice due to reasons we all know, and for men in very certain cases, but these attribute to a lesser statistics. Everyone has got one life, which they can live in many ways, and leave only through giving up. The ultimate choice of life is in the hand of the individual, so keeping it in mind I would like everyone to say one small thing. "I shall never encourage self-murder. I shall help the one is distress if he is close to me. I shall dishearten someone is distraught. And above all, I shall close my eyes towards the society and open my inner eyes to hear the soul truth from myself alone."

This is just a simple thought from my side. Please share your ideas and views on the topic.

Who are winners?

When I look back at some instances, I couldn’t help but wonder how worse was many of my decisions, and what is going on with me. I had been against my friends from school for around 6 years, and was quite defying at college too. But 6 years in my life was not just useful in all sense, but I also could see why I had gone through such instances in the short period of 6 years.

They say you have to grow old to be a man of wisdom. Obviously, this is a false statement obtained from the elderly people who do not want the youngsters to think above the white haired men (The way I see it, the thought exists only in India and not in developed places.) The elderly men say that one has to gain education, get certificates, get a job, get a married, make money, and such.

Am not saying that this is a falsified statement, but one has to admit that this is a blinded statement exerted by the men who have not seen much of the world. They have only lived long enough around the area they grew up or travelled. To know true wisdom, one has to talk to a mountaineer, a dancer, or leading businessmen. Why? Because they are leaders of their lives.

I was once mentioned about a person who works at theatres in Bangalore. He is presently 45, and was a gold medal winner from IIT and IIM (45 years old, so imagine the time when he got the medals. This is a time when engineering was a far away post that could be obtained by rich kids). He worked, and he earned loads, and he was quite unhappy. The moment he left the job and entered the theatres, his sadness grew down to a small fact, “Why didn’t I do this earlier?” Now he is happy; he earns less, but is happy.

Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara is a movie that has to be watched by the youth of present times, who are scared to make decisions. In it says a quote “Why waste your today for an unexpected tomorrow?” People say that you have to make money and then go behind your dream. But the trouble is will there be a tomorrow to get onto our dream?

Edison had to undergo lots of spankings and ill words, until he proved himself worthy by creating a revolution, during the time when people thought inventions were not worth it. Einstein was called a fool. Newton was a donkey as per his father. Chaplin was a tramp. Shakespeare was so poor that he had to leave school and work at a horse pen. Copernicus was made to agree that the earth was the centre of the universe. And Robert Frost had to travel across the sea to be seen by the world.

But if we check history, these people are regarded the greatest in the universe, since they believed in what they could do and move forward. Then comes a prominent question asked by many of my fellow mates. “Come on! You are talking about Shakespeare and Edison. Are you any one of them?” The answer is simple. “No, I am not for I am a different individual. But if you’re considering their level of work, you have to remember that they were born just like me, and they faced many consequences in life, just like any one of us.”

Where did they make the difference that makes them apart from everyone else? A simple decision about shutting the ears to the mind, giving only the logical thoughts to the mind and listening purely to the heart made the difference for them. And thus legends were born, because a legend can never be made. Taking the history of heroes from all around the world, you will the power of will and dreams that guided each and everyone one of them, starting from the man who invented fire to Mark Zuckerberg who invented facebook.

Dreaming a dream is an easy task, but living it takes courage and a determined mind to face the world. And only those had been successful in life. So the way I see it, the essential point we all have to accept is to “Listen to the heart, and live your dream”.

So if any elderly says about their age and experience, just tell them that Buddha was only 30 when he guided half of the world to light.

God bless you all dreamers.

P.S. I had been a day dreamer for six years. I had been an active dreamer for just around 2 months. But that has made the difference in me.