I was never that friend I thought I was

Do not get me wrong, but please get this right
I request you, understand my plight
You are no different, but you were special to me
But I'm not that friend I thought to be

I am the one you have on your wall
Among the thousand others, all and whole
On your FB wall you have some of them
Never have I been one among them

I'm the friend you need for the deed
I'm the friend you need
But I'm not the friend you want
I'm just a friend for you to rant

I'm not the friend that comes to your mind
When you want to run around blind
I'm the friend you remember when you yelp;
When you hit the wall and need real help

I'm not the friend that you want to stay
You got other friends, you have another way
For fun and joys you have other boulders
And to cry and whine, you have my shoulders

But it is OK, I am fine with it
Used to the life for as long as I remember it
The friend you want, I have never been
Just the friend you need, when the moment is green

But it's OK, I have come in term
With that fact that I am nothing but a worm
It's OK, I am today's flowers in the vase
For I'm never that friend I thought I was