I was learning everything about myself for the past two days, when I was alone in my room, thinking about the drama, which again has a chance to drop away. Did I mention my dance drama being pulled out by a mother-fucking man who always walks around with a tie? Sorry for my language, just can't help it.
Talking about me, I was going round about that one girl. She...the angel, the blossoming flower of the garden in my hearty. She thinks I am loser. A year ago, a friend of mine successfully made her believe it ever since I made one mistake. The gravest mistake was in trusting him.
Why am I saying this now? For one simple reason, that I have realized a cruel part about love. She hates me in all sense. And why...because she has failed to see me.
What is essential in a relationship? Mutual understanding. That was why I was craving for love. but it seems like....love is not the essential thing. When a person is your mate, he/she wants to point you to their friends and say, "Look at that person. He/She is cool in such a way."
People want to be with those who have proved their worth. Is their truth in such a relationship? I don't think so. Consider the way I think, I'll reach somewhere only after long time. If someone comes into my life now, it will be someone who can understand me deeply. After being successful, there is no point in having a person in your life, for deceit overcomes love at such states. Rarely love comes at such states.
Finding a mate before being someone is thus essential for me. But now, she sees not me but my faults. And foolish me...I can not fall for someone else I have fallen so much for her. It is not love as they say, it is foolishness. And I am still in that transient state where I just don’t know anything else apart from her. What is the use of such a state?
One day...she will know. It will be too late by then. And I will be alone forever, for till date, I've never fund anyone who could replace her, ever.
Nobody wants to be with a loser. And nobody wants to be with a lover. Everyone wants to be with a person who they can show out to the society and say, "This is my guy/gal."
No offense to the lovers outside. I am simply mad today. And I just want to say to you...you may be in love. I am only typing my feelings. And I am not drunk, but quite crazy....Silly me!!!
