So far this had been yet another bad year for me. I had been under the thought that I had friends over here, but then, many strange things struck me hard enough. First of all, I lost in my dramas. My D-Zone drama was a failure. Have to blame myself for being more a director and less an actor on stage. But my team mates too didn't take it seriously. For them it was just a game, while for me it was a life time opportunity. In other words, they failed me.
I lost in arts too. Got a second because of one man's callous behavior. I am still upset about it, because if I had got it right, things would have gone in a far better fashion.
I thought my department was with me when they supported me throughout arts. But when I went for D-Zone, I realized that the support was because at arts I was the only one representing them in English drama. Once it was done, they needed me no longer. At a moment when I need lot support, I got none at D-Zone. Happy to know that I have no friends over there. So, as I thought in the beginning of my engineering life, I have made no friends.
A person who I thought was a good friend betrayed me not just in my love life, but also in case of my other friends too. Many think I am the worst choice they could opt because of that one man. Glad to know that everyone has broken up with me not just because I am different, but because of the image he had made of me. The sad part is…I am fucking alone.
The present outcome is, I have decided to not to continue engineering. I will finish the course, but not go through the supples after college. I rather go through what I want, because, no one wants me to do so. I want to live my life.
Scared and worried about falling in love, because P@#$%^&* has been lot for me. She just didn't see it. Now I don't care. Love and I will never go together.
Friends...I rather leave them here. I may be victorious, or I may lose and die as such. They will praise or ditch me respectively. But none will be with me. So let they be here.
And why I say this here, for two reasons. One that I am stepping on to a new year, where I am desperate to make some friends, fall in love and make a new face of myself. I know that none will happen, but still, what if....
And secondly....because I am sure no body will be reading this. So far, that's what has been happening to my blog.
